‎life is all about those little hells you have to go through in order to get to the good parts - Dallas Green

MW Powell; I hope heaven needs you more than I do now. RIP ♥

I can barely breathe.
This is not ok.
I’m not ok.

I’m weak.

It’s been a week since I broke things off with him and it’s been over a month since I’ve seen him.
I thought this would be easier because I’m on the other side of the world now but it’s just so much harder. I miss him like crazy, he was the first person I spoke to when I woke up and the last person before I went to sleep. Everynight I find myself thinking yes I can do this then I just fall apart, crying for hours till I fall asleep.
I know I made the right decision to break it off and to stop making contact with him but it doesn’t mean it hurts any less.
I wanna talk to him so badly. I hate this. I hate being on the other side of the world. I hate falling asleep and waking up without him. I hate it. I suck.

"You need to know how badly I want you. At this point, I’m beyond caring if I come off as needy. I don’t care if I come off as weak. I’m already weak at the thought of you laying your hands upon anyone else. I’ve never been one to have a bad temper, but when I picture you sleeping soundly in someone else’s arms, it sets my veins on fire.
I don’t need you to tell me how badly you want me, because chances are, you don’t. I just want you to wake up every morning and remember that there’s someone in this world who refuses to put you anywhere else but first. And I’m sorry if my hands are shaking as I say this to you. I’m just afraid. I’m afraid that your name will still beat within the rhythm of my chest as I’m lying next to someone else. I’m afraid of hearing your favorite song on the radio in the car, and no longer being able to see the road. I’m afraid that everything I have will never be enough if I try to give it to anyone else but you.
Maybe you don’t need to know how badly I want you.
Maybe I just need to know if you could ever want me too."
-Connotativewords | jl | Truth Be Told  (via mermaidsongs)