It’s been a week since I broke things off with him and it’s been over a month since I’ve seen him.
I thought this would be easier because I’m on the other side of the world now but it’s just so much harder. I miss him like crazy, he was the first person I spoke to when I woke up and the last person before I went to sleep. Everynight I find myself thinking yes I can do this then I just fall apart, crying for hours till I fall asleep.
I know I made the right decision to break it off and to stop making contact with him but it doesn’t mean it hurts any less.
I wanna talk to him so badly. I hate this. I hate being on the other side of the world. I hate falling asleep and waking up without him. I hate it. I suck.